Today, I begin to seek my first job experience, it's fairly hard work to do ~~ I reckon, cause i feel  so scary, shame to  do these sorts of thing at this stage~~( BS myself )   but i believe i will get use to it ~

at the beginning,  i mean to enquire the job, I hesitate and stagger to push myself into the shop ~~~ yeah, it is~~ I pass by the shop many times, persuade myself again and again, ~ It  takes me long time to get over the fear ~~  ai ~ quite rough~~

Fortunately, there's someone behind me; I do need confidence and courage anyway~ that's really something ~~

in the meantime, I entirely realize it isnt as smooth as i wonder before, to earn money on my own . Particularly, to find job, cause it seems like  few vacancy at this moment.  ~~bloody~~ 

I suppose I will keep looking ~ and wish get more lucky stuff later on   hope so ~~